Isn’t there anyone out there that can teach me how to deal with stupidness without wanting to scream? I’m tired of people saying “Just don’t let things bother you.” Motherfucker if I knew how to “Just not let things bother me” would I be asking for help right now? Probably not! I don’t want to end up like my mother, but I’m starting to fear that’s exactly where I’m headed.
I’ve know this to be true for quite some time now. But today is the first day in a while I’ve been so frustrated, angry and upset I wasn’t sure whether to laugh or cry, so naturally, I did both. I desperetely need Valium! It wasn’t just one thing that happened and then I freaked out a little and got over it. No, it was the entire damn day that sucked monkey nuts. Even when I was laughing with my friends I still felt the urge to completely flip out and start throwing things, like a small child throwing a tantrum. I’m not even sure why. Ok, so I had a nightmare that was work related. Well, that happens more often than not, so nothing new there. Yes, I felt horribly tired when I woke up and just wanted to never get out of bed. Again, really not a new occurance. I hate feeling like this, but what I hate even more is not knowing why I am feeling this way. Nothing new that hasn’t been happening everyday for a while is going on, so, WHAT THE FUCK?!?! I’ll tell you what, as soon as that health insurance kicks in (assuming I haven’t been fired yet) I’m finding a damn doctor that will give me some Valium for days like this. I can’t stand feeling like there is molten lava spewing out of my eyes and mouth and anyone that crosses my path is going to get burned. I’m talking third degree here ok, serious business.
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